Birthday gone…in a flash!

Haha. This year’s birthday is so come and go. I was still busy rushing out assignments on my birthday eve and birthday. LOL. Anw, had a pretty shiok birthday this year, nothing fancy, but I really cherish the time spent with my loved ones and friends. It was just such a happy time.

Anw, have been freakin busy like nobody’s business. This sem is not just hell week, but hell sem as a whole. LOL. The pace for a level 3000 module is really fast and there’s really quite a lot to do, not to mention I’m taking 3 modules which have projects. -.- And…I joined teamNUS rugby this sem. LOL. Sounds like I committed suicide eh. LOL

But, I have to say that I totally never regret my decision to join rugby. The feeling of standing on the field and playing rugby again is really just incomparable to anything else. Training is tough, but I’m really kinda enjoying it, and there is so much more motivation to train now. Gonna have to gym hard. =D

Voices is progressing along well too, with the lessons done now and we are moving into Mini Concert preparation soon. Hopefully the juniors will really enjoy the entire process and form bonds in Voices that will stay with them throughout their uni life. This year’s Emerge is going to be huge too. Target no. of audience is 1000, which is like the past 2 years’ Emerge combined. Let’s make this huge.

It has been going on for sometime but I guess I’ve never really said it here. My friends and I formed a band and we call ourselves Grey Area. Woots. My very own band. I’m really excited about this. Haha. Anw we went for the Ben&Jerry’s @ The Cathay auditions for their open mic exposure and we got through so we’ll be performing there for the very first time on 24th Oct, Sat. And I’m picking up bass too. So many things going on, so many new thing being learned. This is really a busy period, and yet so exciting. Haha.

Really hope everything will go smoothly. Have to start catching on my studies though. I really wouldn’t like my CAP to suffer cos of all this. Haha.

He is faithful and His love is everlasting

My God is a faithful God and He deserves all praise. I thank Him for all that He has done for me.

Could we with ink the ocean fill,
And were the skies of parchment made,
Were every stalk on earth a quill,
And every man a scribe by trade;
To write the love of God above
Would drain the ocean dry;
Nor could the scroll contain the whole,
Though stretched from sky to sky.

This is how strong God’s love for us is. We go through difficult situations, and yet everytime He is there for us.

Learn to let go, to leave everything in His hands, for the world is insignificant.

What the heck is going on?!

i saw her again today. it has now been reduced to almost no eye contact at all. i dun understand why things have to be like tt. she says she needs time and say not to contact her. but how much time is enuf? are we gg to juz try to avoid each other for the rest of our lives? think abt it.

i’m alrd not gg for CG in church cos of this. and now whenever i go for a church, i feel like a fugitive. imagine tt: feeling like a fugitive in the house of the Lord where i’m supposed to be at peace from everything else. i have to try to make sure that i will not bump into her juz in case there’s awkwardness. and i chose this because i dun wan her growth as a Christian to be stumbled. and yet i feel my own growth slowing down. i’ve known my CG mates for quite sometime and some of them were my JC mates. it nv really dawned upon me how close i am to my CG until now. i actually find myself missing the times when i’ll juz fool around with them.

seriously, the more i think abt it, the more pissed i end up getting. even at this point of time, i’m thinking of how things would be the best for her, wat i should do so that she can move on and stuff. but wat abt me? even now when i see some of our mutual friends, i dunno wat to do. i dun even really dare to talk to them. this ripple effect is really getting to be quite big. does she even noe all these things that i’m doing? does it have to be to the extent that i might as well juz disappear from all our mutual social circles? wth.

i noe i didn’t handle the situation well and ppl would say that i’ve alrd moved on so who cares. but it doesn’t mean that it wun hurt to see someone who was so close to u become so far apart from u. yes, reconcilation takes two to work, but how long more can i wait? how much more can i take? my hand is always outstretched but i’m seriously asking myself why i do that.

hate me if u want. but dun drag others whom i love and cherish into this. screw this shit.