Your Name is like honey to my lips,
Your Spirit like water to my soul,
You Word is a lamp unto my feet,
Jesus I love you, I love you.
“I will sing to the LORD as long as I live; I will sing praise to my God while I have being.” Psalms 104:33
It was a wet morning. I was walking to the MRT station on my way to school, thinking about my studies, what I should do to get good grades, whether I am working hard enough, comparing myself to others and feeling inadequate, etc. Looking down deep in thoughts, I suddenly noticed the large number of earthworms stranded on the path due to the rain. This is when I noticed the birds happily enjoying the windfall of food, hopping around on the path, totally oblivious to my presence, even when I walked past them.
Right at that moment, I was reminded of a verse from the bible. Luke 12:24 says, “Consider the ravens: they neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn, and yet God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds!”
Humankind has always been proud of our knowledge, and we have always claimed that it is our wisdom that has set us apart from the mindless, wisdom-lacking beasts and creatures that populate the earth with us. We have always placed our success on our wisdom, saying that knowledge is the key to power and to everything that we crave to achieve. Without knowledge, we would not have prospered and progressed to the stage we are today.
But what of the birds? Why is it that they, the ones whom we deemed to be useless and mindless, sometimes survive better than us? Why is it that they, the ones whom we deemed to be lacking in the knowledge we so desire, prosper and do not fret about life like we do?
Why am I in this race for knowledge? Why is it that there is such a large number of people I see in the lecture theatre who are so concerned with the amount of knowledge they have, revelling in the fact that they know more that the others, and then fighting to get more knowledge?
What is the meaning of knowledge? Why do we then, need knowledge if we will be taken care of by God even when we have none of it?
At that moment, God spoke. Knowledge is not about us. Knowledge is not something for us to boast of. The reason why we have knowledge is for us to realise just how wonderful God is and how great His love for us is. We have knowledge to let us understand the great works that He has done for us.
Humans always take pride in our own discoveries, with the recent discovery of DNA deemed to allow us play God. But how many realise that our so-called “discoveries” is merely naming of what was created by God at best? Did we create all these “discoveries”, or did we simply put a name to it?
The birds who do not have knowledge simply enjoyed what God had provided, and never understood the greatness of God. But us, who are God’s special creation, His children, have been bestowed with knowledge not for us to indulge in self-pride, but to allow us to see His greatness and to therefore give Him all the honour and praise that He deserves.
Therefore, if that is the meaning of knowledge, then the reason why we seek so much knowledge is no longer to get better grades or earn more money, but it should be so that we can honour and praise God even more than we are doing now.
Maybe then, it’s time we take a new outlook on our pursuit of knowledge in our lives.
I was watching this video posted by my friend on Facebook. It’s this music video of sorts by this guy called Jon Schmidt where he plays the song Love Story on the piano with a cellist. I’ve watched him doing another beautiful piece where Love Story meets Viva La Vida. Watching him and hearing the beautiful music, I suddenly thought about how long he must have practiced before he got that good. And I start thinking about what he did when he failed in the past.
I was going through a rough patch recently and everything weren’t really going that well. I spoke to God, more of in a frustrated manner, but He is so faithful that He spoke to me in an unexpected manner that brought me back to His side just like that.
I was walking at Jurong Point when I passed by the shop Precious Thoughts. And it was playing Facing the Giants on the TV at the entrance. I’ve watched the show before, and watching it again, I just thought that it’s so nice that I want to watch it again. So I went home, and watched the entire movie on Youtube. And the part about how our priority in our lives is to honour God in everything that we do just hits me. We honour God whether things go smoothly or not. I guess I’ve slowly let other things move up my priority list, to the extent that I’ve neglected God. And suddenly everything just makes sense. I know He’s there with me. I know there’s gonna be a reason for why things aren’t going my way. We usually focus all our energy on being successful but I realize that success means nothing without God. Everything in our lives should be a tool that we use to honour God and that should be the most important thing.
And when you realize that, you realize that whatever failures you face now, as long as you honoured God in the process and put in everything you’ve got, are no longer considered failures. You are never a failure in God’s eyes. Just keep going. God has a plan for you and one day He will fulfill it for you.
I guess we have been bought into the world’s idea of how everything should be done fast to the extent that we have neglected the value of patience and how things can only be properly done when done slow. Learning is a process and takes a long time but we often forget that. We often just want the fast track but that is usually impossible. Maybe it is time to change our mentality.
Have been so busy that once again, I’m not updating my blog. Sorry to you guys who do check out my blog.
Really been busy with all the projects and assignments, and the one module that really pisses me off is Business Communication. Too much to be done with too little time, to the extent that I feel that I’m not really learning anything but merely rushing to meet deadlines. Seriously, they should look into the organization of the module for the entire sem.
Just realised that I got removed from Facebook as friend by someone. Yes, that particular someone. I’m not sure when it happened, but I found out just when I thought things were moving on. So yes, another wrench is throw into the gearworks again. And we are still not greeting each other. How to move on and just go for CG? I have no idea. Don’t ask me.
Think I’m really getting lost and moving real far away from Him. And the worst thing is, I’m not sure how. Have been praying, but somehow the passion still seems to be lacking.
I’m just hoping everything can be over real soon. This sem is really shit.
Haha. This year’s birthday is so come and go. I was still busy rushing out assignments on my birthday eve and birthday. LOL. Anw, had a pretty shiok birthday this year, nothing fancy, but I really cherish the time spent with my loved ones and friends. It was just such a happy time.
Anw, have been freakin busy like nobody’s business. This sem is not just hell week, but hell sem as a whole. LOL. The pace for a level 3000 module is really fast and there’s really quite a lot to do, not to mention I’m taking 3 modules which have projects. -.- And…I joined teamNUS rugby this sem. LOL. Sounds like I committed suicide eh. LOL
But, I have to say that I totally never regret my decision to join rugby. The feeling of standing on the field and playing rugby again is really just incomparable to anything else. Training is tough, but I’m really kinda enjoying it, and there is so much more motivation to train now. Gonna have to gym hard. =D
Voices is progressing along well too, with the lessons done now and we are moving into Mini Concert preparation soon. Hopefully the juniors will really enjoy the entire process and form bonds in Voices that will stay with them throughout their uni life. This year’s Emerge is going to be huge too. Target no. of audience is 1000, which is like the past 2 years’ Emerge combined. Let’s make this huge.
It has been going on for sometime but I guess I’ve never really said it here. My friends and I formed a band and we call ourselves Grey Area. Woots. My very own band. I’m really excited about this. Haha. Anw we went for the Ben&Jerry’s @ The Cathay auditions for their open mic exposure and we got through so we’ll be performing there for the very first time on 24th Oct, Sat. And I’m picking up bass too. So many things going on, so many new thing being learned. This is really a busy period, and yet so exciting. Haha.
Really hope everything will go smoothly. Have to start catching on my studies though. I really wouldn’t like my CAP to suffer cos of all this. Haha.
My God is a faithful God and He deserves all praise. I thank Him for all that He has done for me.
Could we with ink the ocean fill,
And were the skies of parchment made,
Were every stalk on earth a quill,
And every man a scribe by trade;
To write the love of God above
Would drain the ocean dry;
Nor could the scroll contain the whole,
Though stretched from sky to sky.
This is how strong God’s love for us is. We go through difficult situations, and yet everytime He is there for us.
Learn to let go, to leave everything in His hands, for the world is insignificant.
i saw her again today. it has now been reduced to almost no eye contact at all. i dun understand why things have to be like tt. she says she needs time and say not to contact her. but how much time is enuf? are we gg to juz try to avoid each other for the rest of our lives? think abt it.
i’m alrd not gg for CG in church cos of this. and now whenever i go for a church, i feel like a fugitive. imagine tt: feeling like a fugitive in the house of the Lord where i’m supposed to be at peace from everything else. i have to try to make sure that i will not bump into her juz in case there’s awkwardness. and i chose this because i dun wan her growth as a Christian to be stumbled. and yet i feel my own growth slowing down. i’ve known my CG mates for quite sometime and some of them were my JC mates. it nv really dawned upon me how close i am to my CG until now. i actually find myself missing the times when i’ll juz fool around with them.
seriously, the more i think abt it, the more pissed i end up getting. even at this point of time, i’m thinking of how things would be the best for her, wat i should do so that she can move on and stuff. but wat abt me? even now when i see some of our mutual friends, i dunno wat to do. i dun even really dare to talk to them. this ripple effect is really getting to be quite big. does she even noe all these things that i’m doing? does it have to be to the extent that i might as well juz disappear from all our mutual social circles? wth.
i noe i didn’t handle the situation well and ppl would say that i’ve alrd moved on so who cares. but it doesn’t mean that it wun hurt to see someone who was so close to u become so far apart from u. yes, reconcilation takes two to work, but how long more can i wait? how much more can i take? my hand is always outstretched but i’m seriously asking myself why i do that.
hate me if u want. but dun drag others whom i love and cherish into this. screw this shit.
Voices welcome bash was great! everything went smoothly and i think the freshies had a ball of time (or at least i hope so! haha!) i think our performance was quite good and we did manage to show the freshies the kind of things that Voices do usually.
really have to thank Marcus and Joel again for all the help they rendered. it’s like i may have a lot of ideas in my mind but they are the ones who have all the experience and knows exactly wat to do. without them, i seriously think that the welcome bash will not be as successful as it was today.
hopefully such momentum can carry on thru all the way until Emerge 2010 and until the next new committee. and if we can manage to pull thru all our ideas, we’ll really be bringing Voices to a new height. and tt is something to be excited abt.
Gotta keep moving. Don’t stop.
my laptop is finally back and the moment i got it, it’s gaming time! haha. and i gamed all the way till 5am. haha! guess i need to take better care of my laptop and so i got a new keyboard protector for it. i never realised how dependent i am on my laptop until it’s away. i felt so handicapped. lol! guess u’ll really only learn to cherish things when they are gone eh.
Voices welcome bash is later and i’m kinda really excited abt it. haha. and the thing is i’ll be doing 2 songs! i would say that the standard for this yr is higher than last yr so it will really help to give a good first impression for them during welcome bash. hopefully we can keep all the good ones. haha.
just as e title suggests, my life is flying past. have been so busy with so many stuff that i nd to think juz to know wat day of the week it is. and e thing is, e best has yet to come. haha. guess i juz have to suck it up.
3 days of Voices auditions have passed and generally, all of us feel tt e standard has gone up frm last yr. maybe cos singing is so ‘in’ now, i notice an increasing trend in ppl learning singing outside. and maybe tt’s why e standard seems to be higher now. either way, i juz hope tt we’ll be able to retain most of them, and continue to push Voices to a greater height. oh, did i mention jasmine tye came for our auditions too? and tt’s why we are having a headache as to how to retain her in Voices. lol.
anw, really have to thank marcus and joel for doing so much for e auditions and e teaching syllabus. they really slogged their guts out for it. if it’s only me doing ah, i think sure will miss out on a lot of stuff. haha. i’m not a meticulous person after all. maybe i shld learn to tho. haha.
can’t wait for IFG rugby to start. gg back for rugby training was really damn shiok. haven’t had such fun for a v long time. hopefully we can really play well as a team this year and win something back for Arts. and this means i shld get my fitness up again as well. time to start training!
my spiritual walk with God seems to be suffering a bit recently. dunno wat’s up with me but i think discipline has been dropping. and i seriously nd to reignite e passion as well. think God is seriously trying to tell me something frm all e sermons and e verses i read during quiet time. somehow everything seems to be echoing e same thing to me. maybe i’ve been trying to avoid it, but i guess it’s really high time for me to face reality and do something abt it. i nd to search for tt ‘push’ factor. seriously.
keeonn needs to get his act together.
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